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Just a little bit of respect once in a while would be nice.
If you could dream about anything tonight, what would it be?
being far far away with my love somewhere alone... on vacation.
Thursday:
Hung out at Jason's for a little bit after getting out of work early. Ran some errands to pick up some needed things for the weekend to come. Stopped at the bank to take out some money to give to my mother. Picked up Caleb, drove him to his dad's house, got stuck in traffic, almost got into an accident. Came home found a check waiting for me in my door. Jason came over to help unload my tuck with wood. Left to go run some more errands. Went to Burger King for dinner. Saw some interestingly strange folks. Went to Walmart. Bought some stuff for our camping trip. Got out of Walmart and realized I lost the large check that I desperately needed to deposit. Decided to not let it ruin my weekend and planned to deal with it on Monday. Slept over Jason's house.
Friday:
Woke up. Checked the weather. Still looked kind of crumby. We put the kayaks on top of Jason's Jetta and as we started down Rte 9 the kayaks started to blow off the car! The rack dented Jason's car but luckily Kevin was there with his truck and loaded our kayaks in the back. Jess and Mike decided not to go. Jill (Jason's sister), Jason, Jason (Jill's husband), Mike, Ruby, her son Caleb, Peter (Jason's brother), Kevin who I work with, and some of Jill's friends from work all decided to still go. The weather was cloudy when we got down to Old Lyme but it held out all day and we all had an awesome time. It was especially nice for me to get to hang out with Jason's family as I haven't gotten to do that much. Molly enjoyed watching the big dogs, her lab cousins Remy and Winnie (Winchester and Remington). She wanted so bad to be a big dog too! It was so cute! After we left great island, everyone except for Jill's friends from work came back to my house for a little BBQ. It was a great 4th of July.
Saturday:
Jason and I woke up on Saturday to find that the weather was still kind of crumby and we were not sure if we would be able to go on our special camping trip. We were also supposed to go to a new waterpark at an old quarry in Portland but the weather just didn't seem nice enough. We went out for breakfast, then went to New Haven and walked around the Peabody museum. After leaving there we decided to drive around Guilford and Madison for a little while, then I decided to drive all the way across the state to Harkness (one of my favorite beaches). Jason fell asleep in the car it was really cute. Then we walked Molly around the beach for a little bit. It started to get gloomy and late so we decided to go back to my house. I called my mother o ask her what the weather was doing in our area and she said that it had been sprinkling on and off so we still weren't sure if we were going camping because we didn't want to camp in the rain. We got back to my house and the sun came out. The forecast was still iffy but we decided to go camping anyways. At around 7 we kayaked out to Haddam island set up our tent. And got to watch fireworks all night. We sat out alone on our little island, quiet and calm. Me Jason and Molly.
Sunday:
Sunday we woke up on the island, packed up, paddled back (the middle of the connecticut river was so shallow Jason and I both got our kayaks stuck and had to walk back part of the way). We came home for a little bit. Ate some burgers showered, then went down to the outlets. Jason got a new pair of sunglasses and then we ate lunch then headed over to the movie theater and watched "Love Guru". We had such a good time. Then we came home to my house watched a movie. Then Caleb came home and we built a fire outside made some smores and my mother stopped by for a quick visit. After, Jason and I watched "Walk the Line" and I cried through the whole thing, thinking about how Jason is my Johnny and I am his June. I feel asleep in my Jason's arms completely happy about my new life (just as I have done every single night before)
Monday:
Jason and I also had Monday off so our weekend was extra long! Today we woke up and brought Caleb to school then we went to Target to buy Jason's daughter Maddie some birthday presents. We got her lots of cool stuff and had fun shopping together. Then we came back to my house and wrapped Maddie's presents and then went in my pool. The water was pretty cold and I was terrified. I can't swim but Jason gave me some lessons and I did ok. Afterwards we searched through his car again for my missing check. I just couldn't understand how it could completely disappear. Still didn't find the check. I left to go pick Caleb up from school and Jason went home to his house. After I picked up Caleb from school we went to my mother's house for a visit. It started to get close to Caleb's bedtime so I hurried him home. On the way home I decided to call Walmart and ask if anyone had found the check.... they had! So I decided that even though it was late I would drive a half an hour to the Walmart that had my check. I drove down there and the lady went in the back to get my check. (Apparently they had been trying to call my house but couldn't leave a message because I don't own an answering machine!) She comes out and says "accounting mailed it out to you on Saturday". Ugh! So I drive home and check my mailbox.... I had been so busy I hadn't checked my mailbox in days... and thats where it was. It had been there all day today!
Silly.
Wonderful.
Awesome.
Amazing.
Best weekend ever.
will post pictures soon.
Yesterday was one of the final steps to having a life of normalcy. Jason and I have wanted to be together for so long and now it is, as they say, "official". He is my boyfriend. He is the love of my life and today our life can begin together. All of the things that were standing in our way, are gone. We no longer have to keep our feelings for each other a secret. In some ways we moved slow and did things "right" and in other ways we moved backwards to get to where we are now.... at wonderful beginning to a wondrous life together. The weights of our lives and circumstances have lifted. We are perfect for each other. We are soul mates. He is my best friend. Nothing in my life has ever been so perfect. He makes me laugh, he makes me smile, he gives me joy in my heart like I have never felt before. He makes me happy; genuinely happy. I love his daughter and he loves my son, and someday soon our kids will start to hang out together. Knowing our kids I know that they will grow to love each other too. We have a great life and it just keeps getting better and better.
It feels like almost everything in my life is complete...............
well.... I've been pretty busy lately. I've really been enjoying my new hobby with the love of my life.... KAYAKING! Yes, I love it. I love being outdoors and I love being able to take my new DSLR camera with me and get shots of places that I normally couldn't get to without a boat.
Lately I seem to just be so.... busy I guess. Well my head feels busy anyways. I'm in love with my new life and my new found happiness. I am in love with my new love. Can't call him new really he's been around for almost a year now. On July 14th of last year, I posted about feeling love at first sight. That's when I first really met him. I wrote about wanting what you can't have. He's still here and I still feel the same way I felt back then. I feel the same way and stronger and stronger everyday. Every up and down through this crazy ride has just brought us closer together. I am lucky and i know that everyday. Most people aren't as lucky as I am to have found what I have found. I have found my mirror, my soulmate, my one true love. He pushes me, helps me, guides me, cares for me and lets me be me.
Today is the beginning of something very special. It is a new beginning. In the spectrum of life maybe its not a huge thing... but today is huge. Today means something. Today means everything. Its a fresh new start.
I'm going through a "I feel like I am all over the place" faze again, which is probably why I haven't been writing so much. I just feel like I have not a whole lot going on but at the same time a ton of stuff going on and I can't wrap my head around any of it.
I can honestly say now with no fear left in my heart, that in the past ten months I have met my true love and soul mate and felt what true destined love feels like. Does it sound silly? Ten months? Can you know in ten months? I knew ten months ago. I knew the first time I laid my head on his chest and wrapped my arms around him. I knew. The only difference now, ten months later, is that the fear is gone. And its all so very humbling, and you know it is true love because you realize that you will do anything in the world for that person. Anything. I love him with all my heart.
I have really wanted to start reading the bible lately. I have never read the bible before ever and I really want to start. There are two sections from the Corinthians that I really enjoy:
2 Corinthians 5:
6 So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, 7 for we walk by faith, not by sight. 8 Yes, we are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord. 9 So whether we are at home or away, we make it our aim to please him. 10 For
we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, so that each one
may receive what is due for what he has done in the body, whether good
or evil.
1 Corinthians 13:
13:1 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, [1] but have not love, I gain nothing.
4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant 5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; [2] 6 it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
13 So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
And maybe all of this is related. Maybe its all because of meeting my one true love that I finally feel God in my life. Here is a passage from 1 John 4:
7 Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. 8 Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. 9 In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. 10 In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. 11 Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12 No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us.
Thank you my love... for showing me love... for showing me life... for showing me light... for giving me strength. Everyday I wake, I thank god for you, for this blessing he has given me. I am grateful for you and all that you do. I love you my dear.... good night.
Well I'm the icing on the cake
I'm the secret ingredient you're missing
Down the sidewalk but not complete
And I'm the reason that, baby you're tripping
On decisions you didn't make
I'm the chance you chose not take
And I'm the one you wish you were kissin'
Pray for clear skies tonight
You better start wishin'
So you write the title
I'll write the chapters
We could read a story of love gone disaster
You write the moral
And I'll write the lesson
We could read a love that kept us guessin'
Cause I'm in the question
You are in the reason
Soon this will change
Just like the seasons
My leaves will fall
While you're turning cold
And the colors are on the ground are so bright and so bold
And I'll make no motion
You'll hold me tightly
I'll look at you as you let me down lightly
Oh the story always ends up like this
Another opportunity that you're going to miss
So you write the title
And I'll write the chapters
We could read a story of love gone disaster
You write the moral
I'll write the lesson
We could read a love that kept us guessin'
Oh but I know you so well
When are you gonna come around
Oh I know you so well
When are you gonna come around,
Oh oh oh
You want it to be like this
Oh oh oh
I see how it is
Another opportunity that you're going to miss
